Thursday, May 22, 2008

5.22.08

My appointment was cancelled:( Rescheduled for Tuesday at noon. At first I was really ticked off, but I think I'm OK with it now because it gives me 5 more days of thinking/believing/assuming I'm pregnant. And today it could've all been over.

Maybe not the most heartwarming way of thinking, but the truth, nevertheless. The thing is, after you have a miscarriage everyone and their neighbor pounds into your mourning brain that miscarriages are SOOOOO common. But then when you become pregnant and express concern about having a viable pregnancy, they look at you like you're some kind of pessimistic worrier that just needs to relax and enjoy your pregnancy.

So today I am pregnant and barring any substantial bathroom catastrophes, I will remain that way for at least 5 more days.

3 comments:

Lynda said...

well that stinks.
enjoy the 5 days till the appt and don't stress. ;-P

i'm still thinking about you. i couldn't wait to check out your update..........

Andrea said...

Oh darlin'. :( I'm so sorry I wasn't around when you called yesterday afternoon (workin' at the library) but it was wonderful to hear your voice! Your feelings are 100% understandable, and I know that no matter how much I tell you to keep the faith that you will still be bracing for the worst. That's okay -- you're just protecting yourself. :) But MommaFif, JLegg, and I will all keep praying for you and your lil' beansies -- and that your little lightning bug has the most beautiful flicker for you to see on the ultrasound screen on Tuesday! And the strongest lil' ticker ever! :)

I love you!

Lauren said...

That really sucks about your appointment.

I was so looking forward to hearing all about it but I guess we can wait another 5 days.

Enjoy your weekend!