Sunday, February 3, 2008


There's no good way to say it. I'm going through the worst time of my life. October 6th will no longer be the day of my dreams. I will not be meeting my precious baby for the first time. That day will come sometime, but not October 6th.

This has been a horrible weekend and I just want the nightmare to be over. The pain of losing a baby that was given to me as a blessing from God, only to be taken away in an instant is cruel and unfair. No one deserves this. Why me? WHY?


Lisa said...

I know, I know.

Suz said...

I am so sorry...I love you

Andrea said...

Oh my darling. I just got your email and read your blog now. I am so, so sorry -- my heart is breaking for you and my eyes are filled with tears for you. :(

I will send a message of encouragement + strength + positivity in a few hours, but for now...I love you. {{Gentle Hugs}}

Lynda said...

oct 6th was my due date too. i had a d&c on friday and am still wondering 'why me?'. i came across your blog while searching for others that are in the same boat.
based on lmp i was supposed to be 11 wks but was only measuring 8wks 3 days when i went in w/ cramps on friday. i was devastated when i could see on the screen she was having trouble finding a heartbeat.
everyone deals differently but it is comforting to know i am not alone. i want to try again asap but i feel like i'm wishing my life away.
take care of yourself, i'm going to bookmark you and watch your progress.

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