Sunday, February 3, 2008

2.3.08

There's no good way to say it. I'm going through the worst time of my life. October 6th will no longer be the day of my dreams. I will not be meeting my precious baby for the first time. That day will come sometime, but not October 6th.

This has been a horrible weekend and I just want the nightmare to be over. The pain of losing a baby that was given to me as a blessing from God, only to be taken away in an instant is cruel and unfair. No one deserves this. Why me? WHY?

4 comments:

Lisa said...

I know, I know.

Suz said...

I am so sorry...I love you

Andrea said...

Oh my darling. I just got your email and read your blog now. I am so, so sorry -- my heart is breaking for you and my eyes are filled with tears for you. :(

I will send a message of encouragement + strength + positivity in a few hours, but for now...I love you. {{Gentle Hugs}}

Lynda said...

oct 6th was my due date too. i had a d&c on friday and am still wondering 'why me?'. i came across your blog while searching for others that are in the same boat.
based on lmp i was supposed to be 11 wks but was only measuring 8wks 3 days when i went in w/ cramps on friday. i was devastated when i could see on the screen she was having trouble finding a heartbeat.
everyone deals differently but it is comforting to know i am not alone. i want to try again asap but i feel like i'm wishing my life away.
take care of yourself, i'm going to bookmark you and watch your progress.

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